Threshold of Beyond

I feel like took a trip back in time, to the last year in which struggle to keep money. The paycheck arrived and it was use in as little as half a second, to pay all the bills that were collected, and yet they didn’t even scratch the surface of the water. So that give you a little bit of anxiety, but then my mother called me and said she been a car accident and the person had runaway. I ran out and help her out, just like the time I ran out and help my dad when he cut … Continue reading Threshold of Beyond

Once in a Cross

Growing I’ll never pay much attention to religion/faith, how we got here and where we go, just didn’t seem like things you needed to be bother with. No one around me seem to even be the slightest interested in. It seem like it was antiquated movement of ill-minded people who were clinging to something I neither comprehend nor could visualize. Delusional perhaps, I would have said. My own attempts to wrap my mind around, were meet with lost as to why anyone would ever spend a minute doing this. As the years progress my mentality around this subject has slowly … Continue reading Once in a Cross

Confession of Workaholic

Hello. I have been called a workaholic by many. I usually work 6 days a week, using my single day off to do paperwork (bills, looking for things to invest in) so I don’t usually hang out much. I look for any opportunity to work overtime, to remain at work and make more hours, more money. Yet, don’t exactly like my work. And while others may see a slight obsession with my work, having in 3 years only miss 5 days, I say I’m lazy. I should have second job, I should be doing much more. However all my obsessive … Continue reading Confession of Workaholic

Silver Screen

Hello folks. Here something I been wanting to do for ages: Watch films. And that is another part of depression, usually I like to watch films with others, but felt like my life choice everyone was saying: Oh don’t watch that, or you watch that? My gosh what wrong with you! So with that in mind, I felt like my choices were terrible, watching alone in my house felt, sort of stupid and without meaning. And that when I discover, I have to feel happy about my own things, at my own time and by myself. Learn to love one … Continue reading Silver Screen

Ye Good ole Telly

You ever scan the crowd for them? Those who like you? The faces in the rain, the addicts behind the curtains. You star the night off with two beers, no matter how much you wash your hands the fucking smell of carburetor cleaner and break fluids just won’t leave. You drink your first beer while making that shrimp soup. Twice you glance down, your hands and what you see is your hands are still dirty from the grease, caked under your nails, black as tar. You sit down on the oak table, and start your second beer. The shrimp soup … Continue reading Ye Good ole Telly

Dark Days

Hello, today topic is little deep To what good are morals and commitments if in times of darkness we leave them behind? Why, I had always taught that stealing, murder and life of crime was not a life worth living, little long a thing one should ever do. You see my great-grandfather was a “professional criminal”, never in his life did he showed regret for his colorful choice of career. I long ponder what would driven a completely sane man to a life of crime. Now I know. As waves and waves of anxiety, fear and what can only be … Continue reading Dark Days

Once more with the Feeling – Surgery

Hi, guys! Can you believe this? I surely can’t. Because yup it surgery again, this time do to the fact I had hemorrhaging. Hmm not exactly one of those great moment of your life. Adding to that was the fact my usually “sunny disposition” was exhausted be then. I had six days of incredible pain and discomfort, but did apologize to the nurses and any medical staff for being been cheeky as usually I’m. After surgery things didn’t go so well either, boy oh boy. I woke up to oxygen tubing and asthma that was so severed flared it turn into bronchitis. My … Continue reading Once more with the Feeling – Surgery

Just another Day

Hi, how are you guys? I don’t want this blog to turn into a medical blog but recently its all that been happening in my life. However I will clarified this is not a PITY PARTY, no sir. This just documents what been happening. So as anyone who read my last post knows, I had small accident that turn into a larger one when I was ask to blow my nose in the ER and destroyed five blood vessel in the nose. As result just sitting home with this rhino stopper (it looks like eight inch tampon) in my nose, … Continue reading Just another Day

How Everything when Wrong

Hi, I hate to inform you about my tragedy. As anyone reading my blog or new to it will easily find out, I had nasal surgery. After a little while I was back at work. Only for two days ago for the unthinkable to happen. I rupture a vein. It all happen so fast, I sneeze and there next thing now there was fluids coming my nose so fast, I was it was water. In reality it was blood, so fast that I when through five tissues and more. I was soon driving to the emergency room, were I was … Continue reading How Everything when Wrong