Threshold of Beyond

I feel like took a trip back in time, to the last year in which struggle to keep money. The paycheck arrived and it was use in as little as half a second, to pay all the bills that were collected, and yet they didn’t even scratch the surface of the water. So that give you a little bit of anxiety, but then my mother called me and said she been a car accident and the person had runaway. I ran out and help her out, just like the time I ran out and help my dad when he cut … Continue reading Threshold of Beyond

Once in a Cross

Growing I’ll never pay much attention to religion/faith, how we got here and where we go, just didn’t seem like things you needed to be bother with. No one around me seem to even be the slightest interested in. It seem like it was antiquated movement of ill-minded people who were clinging to something I neither comprehend nor could visualize. Delusional perhaps, I would have said. My own attempts to wrap my mind around, were meet with lost as to why anyone would ever spend a minute doing this. As the years progress my mentality around this subject has slowly … Continue reading Once in a Cross

Pictures of You

Hello, I have always been camera shy, maybe it the fact not what you called goodlooking or even slightly alright. But I have been ever afraid sense my last two surgeries of losing my memories. The fever, like fervent fire consume so much of them, and with no pictures…all that is forever lost. And you see dear reader, I wanted to immortalize the moments. I know another surgery loom over in the future. So now getting photocrazy and taking pictures of absolutely everything, obviously I’m still not the best and incredibly shy about it. And the sort of guy who can … Continue reading Pictures of You

Silver Screen

Hello folks. Here something I been wanting to do for ages: Watch films. And that is another part of depression, usually I like to watch films with others, but felt like my life choice everyone was saying: Oh don’t watch that, or you watch that? My gosh what wrong with you! So with that in mind, I felt like my choices were terrible, watching alone in my house felt, sort of stupid and without meaning. And that when I discover, I have to feel happy about my own things, at my own time and by myself. Learn to love one … Continue reading Silver Screen

Ye Good ole Telly

You ever scan the crowd for them? Those who like you? The faces in the rain, the addicts behind the curtains. You star the night off with two beers, no matter how much you wash your hands the fucking smell of carburetor cleaner and break fluids just won’t leave. You drink your first beer while making that shrimp soup. Twice you glance down, your hands and what you see is your hands are still dirty from the grease, caked under your nails, black as tar. You sit down on the oak table, and start your second beer. The shrimp soup … Continue reading Ye Good ole Telly

To anyone that got an ear!

And here is another day Have you ever found yourself taking a taxi back home and telling the driver everything about your life? Or perhaps the passenger sitting next to in that long train ride with nothing but snow outside. And how about that cashier, bank-teller and even that girl you just recently meet at the pub. You talking to anyone and everything, because your alone. Because you wanted that stuff out off you. To be heard, to be told and even question. Dammit, man my life matter and important! You shout like some crazy person behind the bars inside … Continue reading To anyone that got an ear!

Father Time

Hello It been tremendous amount of time sense my last post. It’s all do to a combination of mental breakdown (that arose as response to year of apathy and depression) and lack of money, which force me to work overtime, and in holidays. I worked Christmas, New Year’s Eve and New Year. And you think I would had been incredibly sad to have spend those days work instead that with my family. But… Actually, no I was quite happy. It jut happen that in those days before the coming new year, I saw that my inner desperation, the need to run … Continue reading Father Time

Crystal Ball

Yo Sorry I took so long folks, I been without internet and without a car & medical bills! But incredibly enough somehow the hospital called me and wanted me to do another sort of study, this one regarding possible Sleep Apnea, to be honest I feel incredibly lethargic through the day and hard to keep awake but heck. I can’t do another bill in my pocket, yes health important. But stress creates damage in health which is cure by taking time off work, oh you know the circle already! I’m however trying to relax and not worry about the million of debts … Continue reading Crystal Ball

Now Its the Time

Hello, folks Sorry not been on here for a while…lost my internet and cable and still don’t have back. I just stop be a friend’s house and borrow his. People say “without the electronics devices we are free” sure that sounds fine, until you release you made all your bills online, so A) you won’t have paperwork to worry about and B) have to chop down trees for no reason.  So I was unable to figure how much money had in the bank, and how many things needed to pay, great situation to be in! But bet your thinking “Bunnet, … Continue reading Now Its the Time