Threshold of Beyond

I feel like took a trip back in time, to the last year in which struggle to keep money. The paycheck arrived and it was use in as little as half a second, to pay all the bills that were collected, and yet they didn’t even scratch the surface of the water. So that give you a little bit of anxiety, but then my mother called me and said she been a car accident and the person had runaway. I ran out and help her out, just like the time I ran out and help my dad when he cut … Continue reading Threshold of Beyond

Pictures of You

Hello, I have always been camera shy, maybe it the fact not what you called goodlooking or even slightly alright. But I have been ever afraid sense my last two surgeries of losing my memories. The fever, like fervent fire consume so much of them, and with no pictures…all that is forever lost. And you see dear reader, I wanted to immortalize the moments. I know another surgery loom over in the future. So now getting photocrazy and taking pictures of absolutely everything, obviously I’m still not the best and incredibly shy about it. And the sort of guy who can … Continue reading Pictures of You

Ye Good ole Telly

You ever scan the crowd for them? Those who like you? The faces in the rain, the addicts behind the curtains. You star the night off with two beers, no matter how much you wash your hands the fucking smell of carburetor cleaner and break fluids just won’t leave. You drink your first beer while making that shrimp soup. Twice you glance down, your hands and what you see is your hands are still dirty from the grease, caked under your nails, black as tar. You sit down on the oak table, and start your second beer. The shrimp soup … Continue reading Ye Good ole Telly

Crystal Ball

Yo Sorry I took so long folks, I been without internet and without a car & medical bills! But incredibly enough somehow the hospital called me and wanted me to do another sort of study, this one regarding possible Sleep Apnea, to be honest I feel incredibly lethargic through the day and hard to keep awake but heck. I can’t do another bill in my pocket, yes health important. But stress creates damage in health which is cure by taking time off work, oh you know the circle already! I’m however trying to relax and not worry about the million of debts … Continue reading Crystal Ball

Now Its the Time

Hello, folks Sorry not been on here for a while…lost my internet and cable and still don’t have back. I just stop be a friend’s house and borrow his. People say “without the electronics devices we are free” sure that sounds fine, until you release you made all your bills online, so A) you won’t have paperwork to worry about and B) have to chop down trees for no reason.  So I was unable to figure how much money had in the bank, and how many things needed to pay, great situation to be in! But bet your thinking “Bunnet, … Continue reading Now Its the Time

God’s lonely man

Boy, going through one those amazingly powerful apathy. One which makes all activities as dull as butter knife, even coming here and typing this seem to provoke a “what the point?” sort of dilemma. Yet, I wish to continue and push forward yet even that seem to require all my energy. PS: Have you ever gone through some enormous apathy? Continue reading God’s lonely man

Overload – Sex

Hi, how are we? Daily we are bombarded with images of sex, from sexy adds in TV or people talking, and weather your secular humanistic or Christian, many of us are open to the idea of liberties of sex. But what of those who treasure the idea of sex and believe to be something very personal. It not about virginity or how many you slept with. It about those who you made connection with. Someone was responded to me with: You wouldn’t want to eat stake for the rest of your life? What sort of mindset images the person next … Continue reading Overload – Sex

Heroes

Hello, peoples Today topic was brought to you by takingthemaskoff, his inspiration and mask shattering blog has been tremendous help to me in this rather dark times. But one topic reach out to my the most, heroes. You see in this particular occasion takingthemaskoff was talking about real life heroes and the glorification of actors, politicians or even athletes. No, we are talking about the grandfather who took care of you, who mentor you in the ways of fishing and hunting. The aunt who took the hurt girl and taught a lesson about love or could be a cousin. You get the picture. … Continue reading Heroes

Two Wars

Hello, folks Recently the theme of “two” paths been enormous in my life. I’ll look at the stack of bills and think how shall I ever climb out this hole, while I don’t have the same enormous anxiety I had once, still pretty big thing in my head. But others tell money isn’t everything, look this spiritual and emotional values. And as try to grasp onto the immaterial I find myself looking back over my shoulder, but what of the money? A war fought in two fronts, will surely exhaust all resources and that what slowly happening. Those who seek … Continue reading Two Wars

Great Cycles

Hello, folks I been deeply examining my life. The boy who long for affection, pre-teen street culture kid, atheist teenage anarchist, the young adult who look for the lost mysticism of the world (I could easily called my hippie days) and then the confuse adult. This not only stages in my life but they also form what can be only describe as the Great Cycles, wow sounds like major cataclysm. Nope, it no great destruction the Great Cycles are how I often change from one “hot mess to another”  what others describes radical personality shift. Seem bizarre and insane? To me … Continue reading Great Cycles