Once in a Cross

Growing I’ll never pay much attention to religion/faith, how we got here and where we go, just didn’t seem like things you needed to be bother with. No one around me seem to even be the slightest interested in. It seem like it was antiquated movement of ill-minded people who were clinging to something I neither comprehend nor could visualize. Delusional perhaps, I would have said. My own attempts to wrap my mind around, were meet with lost as to why anyone would ever spend a minute doing this. As the years progress my mentality around this subject has slowly … Continue reading Once in a Cross

Blood Doctrine

Bleeding just never get old If you ever look at that crimson life giving fluid and think “huh, shouldn’t that be in me?”. Then your probably like me, half crazy half scare out your mind with this whole bleeding things happens. Even if it last for five days, or two. Seeing your blood spew from either your inside back up, as blood vomit or running down your eyes and nose, it don’t change a thing. Yet life still goes on. Continue reading Blood Doctrine

Confession of Workaholic

Hello. I have been called a workaholic by many. I usually work 6 days a week, using my single day off to do paperwork (bills, looking for things to invest in) so I don’t usually hang out much. I look for any opportunity to work overtime, to remain at work and make more hours, more money. Yet, don’t exactly like my work. And while others may see a slight obsession with my work, having in 3 years only miss 5 days, I say I’m lazy. I should have second job, I should be doing much more. However all my obsessive … Continue reading Confession of Workaholic

Ye Good ole Telly

You ever scan the crowd for them? Those who like you? The faces in the rain, the addicts behind the curtains. You star the night off with two beers, no matter how much you wash your hands the fucking smell of carburetor cleaner and break fluids just won’t leave. You drink your first beer while making that shrimp soup. Twice you glance down, your hands and what you see is your hands are still dirty from the grease, caked under your nails, black as tar. You sit down on the oak table, and start your second beer. The shrimp soup … Continue reading Ye Good ole Telly

To anyone that got an ear!

And here is another day Have you ever found yourself taking a taxi back home and telling the driver everything about your life? Or perhaps the passenger sitting next to in that long train ride with nothing but snow outside. And how about that cashier, bank-teller and even that girl you just recently meet at the pub. You talking to anyone and everything, because your alone. Because you wanted that stuff out off you. To be heard, to be told and even question. Dammit, man my life matter and important! You shout like some crazy person behind the bars inside … Continue reading To anyone that got an ear!

Father Time

Hello It been tremendous amount of time sense my last post. It’s all do to a combination of mental breakdown (that arose as response to year of apathy and depression) and lack of money, which force me to work overtime, and in holidays. I worked Christmas, New Year’s Eve and New Year. And you think I would had been incredibly sad to have spend those days work instead that with my family. But… Actually, no I was quite happy. It jut happen that in those days before the coming new year, I saw that my inner desperation, the need to run … Continue reading Father Time

Crystal Ball

Yo Sorry I took so long folks, I been without internet and without a car & medical bills! But incredibly enough somehow the hospital called me and wanted me to do another sort of study, this one regarding possible Sleep Apnea, to be honest I feel incredibly lethargic through the day and hard to keep awake but heck. I can’t do another bill in my pocket, yes health important. But stress creates damage in health which is cure by taking time off work, oh you know the circle already! I’m however trying to relax and not worry about the million of debts … Continue reading Crystal Ball

Now Its the Time

Hello, folks Sorry not been on here for a while…lost my internet and cable and still don’t have back. I just stop be a friend’s house and borrow his. People say “without the electronics devices we are free” sure that sounds fine, until you release you made all your bills online, so A) you won’t have paperwork to worry about and B) have to chop down trees for no reason.  So I was unable to figure how much money had in the bank, and how many things needed to pay, great situation to be in! But bet your thinking “Bunnet, … Continue reading Now Its the Time

Vortex of Lunacy

Oh man, feel like my life slipping into some enormous hole. A very good friend of mine drag me after seeing my miserable self and told me, I must go to a specialist to seek help. I was afraid of the mindset I recently had, I wanted to seriously go to this specialist. The meeting was wonderful and very personal, yet when I was there I didn’t feel it. I didn’t feel much because of the apathy at that moment. So here I was with this psychologist and he told me, I was seeing life “black & white” as I’m currently … Continue reading Vortex of Lunacy